Sometimes just for fun I uber-stalk my ex-boyfriends and guys I’ve hooked up with. It’s hilarious.
It’s not so hilarious when I remember that I’ve hooked up with them.
You’re just looking at them like:
I’ve been dating this guy. It’s one of my really good friend’s older brothers. She was so excited to set us up that I said yes. The brother is literally so sweet and nice, but not my type. He’s just very quiet and I feel like I have to drive the conversation. I have fun, but I’m not attracted and I just feel uncomfortable and awkward for most of the time. My friend texted me and she said that if I don’t like him then I need to end it because leading him on is worse and rude. I completely agree but I don’t know what to say. I don’t think I want a boyfriend. I don’t want to sound cheesy and be like, “it’s not you, it’s me” but it really is me. He’s done nothing wrong.
So what do I say? Help me out, guys. Please.
So freaking adorable.
So today I found out JT likes me. Which is a nice feeling, I suppose. Definitely flattering. But it would have been better timing if this happened last year when I still liked him.
Now I just feel suffocated by all of his texts, phone calls, bear hugs. He is everything I want in a guy. Charming, sweet, good looking, athletic, talented, creative and funny, but I don’t want any of it right now. I’m leaving in less than a month and so is he. Six hours apart. I don’t want this right now. I can’t have any of this in my life. It is already too stressful as it is.
But deep down I know this is probably another way for me to run away from commitment.
1) Current Facebook picture:
2) Picture of myself a year ago:
This is from almost exactly a year ago after I got pied in the face with Jess and Zach.
3) A picture that makes you smile:
This is me and my best friend Kara at prom. I found my prom dress about a month and a half before prom. Kara found hers about a week before. Different stores. Different brands. We didn’t really talk about what they looked like but we still ended up with the exact same dress. :)
4) A picture from when you were little:
Living the thug life since 1993.
5) A picture with someone you love:
Me and my sister back during the Olympic in 1996. She’s in England right now and I miss her like crazy.
6) A picture with you and friends:
This is from the Thespian Awards with all of the seniors from school and some of my closest friends.
7) A picture of you with your family:
This was about a month ago at Baccalaureate.
8) A picture that your hair looks nice:
It’s not neat, but I really like my hair here. Ignore the rash on my neck, it’s stage makeup I had for a show. :)
9) A picture of me and your pets:
Lily and I after graduation. My dog is not photogenic, but she is very adorable in person. :)
10) A picture of you hugging someone:
Me hugging Chase after announcing he won Best Actor at the Thespian Awards night. Giving the best award to my best friend. We were both crying. It was a beautiful moment.
11) A picture of you and your best friend:
I have a number of best friends so it’s hard to pick one person, but I love this picture. It’s Will and I during my graduation party. I love him so much.
12) A picture of you today:
13) A picture of something you miss:
The other week, I feel in love with a camper of mine. His name was Leaf Brown (his parents were the hugest cutest hippies ever). So in school whenever a person would call attendance, they would call “Brown, Leaf”. He was the most adorable, kindest, sweetest, beautiful boy I have ever seen in my entire life. I’ve been going through Leaf withdrawal.