ramble on, maestro

You

Things I love:

Your smile

Your intelligence

Your geekiness

Your dimples when you smile

Your smile

Making you smile

Our matching moles and scars

The way your body feels next to mine

Watching Netflix together

Always waking up with a message from you

Our “I love you”s

Your passion

Your brown hair

Your friends  – Ludiwine

Your family – Fanny, your mom

Your neck kisses

You love your job

Your sense of humor

Your patience

You’re rational

Things I don’t like:

You don’t open up until it’s too late

You constantly hide your feelings. I feel like I have to pry them open

Those can make you seem cold and distant

I feel like I’m constantly annoying you

I feel dumb around you sometimes

Your teasing jokes can be hurtful 

You don’t like my fashion sense

You rarely give me compliments unless I ask for them, which makes me feel selfish. Then it’s always “Yes, you look cute”

I feel like I’m trying my best to be enough for you but it never is.

You never made me feel like you were proud of me

You never went down on me, even though I loved to give you blowjobs. No one likes to give blowjobs. I do it because I like knowing I’m the reason you have so much pleasure. It’s a little thing, but I found it kind of selfish, especially since you know how much I liked it (and every girl out there) and I always tried my hardest to please you. 

Things I will miss:

Waking up next to you

Never holding your hand again

Not being able to send you a present or card “just because”

Comforting you when you had a bad day

Confiding in you about my personal fears 

Never getting to actually meet your mom. She seems so lovely. 

Not seeing your sister or friends. I was looking forward to talking with Fanny about the American shows she’s been watching. Ludiwine was just such a nice person and welcoming. She liked us. And I liked her. I can see why she’s your best friend. 

Our dates to eat Italian food or cooking together again, like that time we cooked pasta carbonara at your house

Watching all the people walk by 

Exploring the city together, whether it’s in Paris and walking down the canal or NYC and we’re walking the Brooklyn Bridge

Running my hands through your hair

Watching Netflix shows together

Slacking with you while we are both at work

Making stupid jokes about you

Having the luxury of my best friend also being the man I love

Picturing our future together

Planning trips to see each other

Our Facetime dates

Correcting your English grammar

Trying to speak French and then you making fun of me

Being the Leslie Knope to your Ben Wyatt

nevver:

Hardball

I cry in the shower because the water drowns out my sobs. It’s the only place I feel safe.

I lived so long just keeping all of my feelings inside. And then when l realize that it’s obviously not healthy, I try to open up and everything goes to hell. I’m sick of people thinking I’m weak. Or that I’m looking for pity. I’m not. I’m just looking for support, for understanding, for a friend.

But now they’re dwindling and it’s obviously something I’m doing wrong but I don’t know what it is or how to stop it.

I’m trying so hard. I’m pulled in so many directions, so many emotions.

I feel like I’m fighting for people. For once, I just want to see someone fight for me.

I’m just sick of crying into the shower.

prettycolors:

#3d61c2

nprmusic:

nprmusic:

Songs We Love 2014

Headphones up! Stream 302 of NPR Music’s favorite songs of the year with an interactive mixtape. 

A farewell to our favorite songs of 2014!

the-doctors-dinobot:

Greatest scene in television history

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readysetreport:

I know it’s technically New Year’s Eve, but I’m going to try to get a head start on some new resolutions.

Resolutions and I don’t have the best relationship. We’re not that reliable and I usually end up nixing them (or at least neglecting them) by March. 

I wrote a lil’ something on how much I hate New Year resolutions then promptly starting listing my new ones out. 

I think Ready Set Report will be more writing-based and talk about on my life and adventures into journalism. Ramble On, Maestro will be more for…tbd and whatnot. 

Cheers. 

(Source: utopologist)

readysetreport:

A lot has happened since the last time I posted. Let’s do a quick rundown of events.

My internship at WTOC ended. I had an incredible time and made some incredible friends and connections at the station in Savannah. I really enjoyed my time there. I tried to spend as much time there as possible…

Now that I finally found a minute to breathe, here’s what I’ve been up to for the past month. 

(Source: utopologist)

ahsanchishty:

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nevver:

Nobody likes me

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msnbc:

Women all over the world have taken to social media to protest a Turkish politician’s assertion that women should not laugh in public.

“Chastity is so important,” Deputy Prime Minister Bülent Arınç said in a meeting last Monday. “A woman will know what is haram and not…

selfie power

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